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Sunday, March 14, 2010

The Fog

I'll start this out with Webster's definition of the word "FOG."

"vapor condensed to fine particles of water suspended in the lower
atmosphere that differs from cloud only in being near the ground.
a murky condition of the atmosphere or a substance causing it.
a state of confusion or bewilderment.
something that confuses or obscures (hid behind)
to become blurred by a covering of fog or mist.
FOGBOUND: unable to move because of fog.

We have had rain for over a week and warmer temperatures,which is a definite sign of spring. But in the meantime, there has been this fog that is thicker than pea soup hanging over the city...and also hanging over my head.

As a result of what's happening in my life, I've decided to give myself a break, take time to digest all that is going on and just rest in this fog, desperately trying not to figure out this condition I'm in and just letting it be.

I'm making plans to fly to Atlanta in two weeks. That has helped. Now it's time to start getting a flight ticket, arranging who I'll stay with, emails sent to some of my loved ones that I would love to spend a few precious moments with, and then not worrying about if I can't see as a result of time. Things will take place as they should. I've definitely had to put so much of all that is happening in my life right now in my basket I keep at the Lord's feet, for Him to help me deal with, and He will. He is the great orchestrator of all things, even down to these tiny details I seem so obsessed with.

I do not want to move into that realm of being able to move because of the fog that seems to follow me right now, or for my vision to be blurred. I do not believe that is happening. With God on my side, I know He will be with me throughout all the planning, and also when I arrive to face somethings that I just don't want to face right now. Guess it's time to put on my "grown up" clothes and walk even in the midst of this fog.

15 comments:

  1. Janie, sometimes fog, both physical and mental, are there to cocoon us and give us time to process things a bit more slowly, with more inward focus. I know you're dealing with a lot of stress and concerns, so just know you're being held in loving thought and prayer. Btw, I'm working on your Scarf Love! Finally got it started last night. Although I'm probably going to be too late for you to wear it during cold weather this year, at least you'll have it on hand for the fall months later in the year.

    Much love & Light to you, dear friend.

    ~ Dawn

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  2. When I read your post, I couldn't help but think about a quote I once read. I'm not sure who wrote it or if I'll even get it correct, but it said,

    "I sometimes feel as though I'm wondering around in the fog, but that's okay. I never know what I might bump into."

    Wishing you the best, my friend.

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  3. So much I can relate to the fog. I know this upcoming trip for you id s big challenge.

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  4. Thanks to all of my dear f.b. friends for your love and support. I think facing my dad will be as big of a challenge as seeing my mama in the condition she is in, BUT, God will be with me.
    MARTY: I love the quote. I take the "I never know what I might bump into as a very positive thing.
    DAWNIE: I loved your analogy of the fog being a cocoon for me allowing me to process things in a slow fashion.
    JBR: I KNOW u know what I'm talking about when it comes to my dad. Knew you would get it! Thanks for understanding. Not everyone does. Much love to all of you, Janie

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  5. Wow, Janie: despite the “fog,” this post sounds so confident and full of matured faith.

    “Things will take place as they should. … He is the great orchestrator of all things.” Yes, indeed He is. It is such an overwhelmingly freeing Truth and comfort that God is sovereign and orders ALL things according to His purpose. Somehow, we get so frustrated and worried sometimes – I know I do! Often, these things are unimportant; sometimes they are very important, even crucial, but it is God that works in us (praise Him for that since we can’t handle it on our own!) and as you remind us, He directs all things so we know they will take place according to His will.

    God must be working in you to settle your spirit and increase your trust in Him! How exciting! Love to you and prayers for you and your mom as you face whatever is ahead and rest gently in this “fog”, waiting and trusting God while He does His work!

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  6. JBR and Ruth,
    This trip will be a challenge, but what when and if I find myself in "one of those situations" with my dad, I know that God will be there to help me and I have all the wonderful friends out there who are praying for me and my situation with my dad, and esp. for my Mama's surgery. Love to you both. Janie

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  7. Janie - wherever we are God is right there with us. We have nothing to fear because of His power that works for us (not against us) and His love for us that guides, protects and gives us exactly what we need to move deeper into Him. I'll be praying for this trip and your relationships - and that you may constantly be aware of His love and power in your life.

    Lam 3:24 The LORD is my portion," says my soul, "Therefore I hope in Him!"

    He is our portion - incredible to meditate on.

    Rachel

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  8. Thank you so much Rachel for taking the time to send out prayers and words of encouragement. Janie

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  9. Janie, I am so glad you have returned. Maybe in time you will be able to write how your trip went. Thank you as always for your encouraging words to me dear one. You are so much appreciated. Blessings.

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  10. Hi Janie,
    i`m so glad to have time to read again here 1 I lost you on facebook and i miss you !You can visit my blog when you have time !Marty helped me to have my own blog and i`m sure you will visit me.
    Love to you !

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  11. Thanks Duane and Violeta....I'll be visiting both your sites in time. Be blessed.

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  12. Janie, thank you for your continued encouragement and support. I love reading your comments. They are so right on. Blessings dear one.

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